Monthly Archives: November 2015

When Time Stood Still


(A letter to my son, Christian)

It was Saturday, November 13, 2010. A typical winter’s day in Alaska, with a beautiful fresh snow blanketing the ground. What started out as a normal day quickly turned into the most horrific day of my life…the day I held your head in my hands and watched you die, helpless to do anything but pray.

Many times I had heard the phrase, “cry out to God”, but on that day, I literally screamed to Him, begging Him to save my baby. There are no human words to describe what I felt, but it seemed as if time had just suddenly stopped. It was as if I was in another world, watching, and waiting.

I don’t know why it occurred to me, or how it happened, but I was suddenly and utterly filled with an indescribable faith, somehow trusting and knowing that God was at work here, and that everything was going to be alright. As I let go and placed your soul into His mighty hands, for you were already dead, there was a surreal peacefulness that entered my spirit. For the first time in my life, I felt the presence of God in me and all around me. I had sensed His presence before, but this was different. This time it was physical!

The paramedics said you were dead for about an hour, but time did not exist for me. I remember everything I saw, heard, thought and felt. But it was like a flash, and yet eternal. It was as if the beginning of the world through to the end, was all rolled up into one breath.

When your heart began to beat again and life returned to your body, time began again, though it seemed painfully slow for several weeks.

It has been 5 years now, and there has not been one second that I have not felt a deep gratitude in my heart for the precious gift God has given us. There have been difficult moments as is the case in life, and there have been times when I have forgotten to say “thank you”. But I have never stopped feeling it.

The love I feel in my heart, for God, and for you, has grown with each day. I can’t imagine life without either of you, and I wouldn’t want to.

I’ve been allowed the privilege of watching you grow and blossom into the young man you are today, and I just want to tell you that I am proud of you! You may not always make good and right choices, you may be irritating at times, but I count it all as joy in seeing you live, in watching as you grow and walk with God.

As a mother, I will always be concerned about you, because I love you. But in the very depths of my soul, as long as you are in God’s hands, I know you will be okay. And so that is my prayer for you, that you live your life by God’s word, walking in His ways, and following His perfect plan for you. Live for God, and you will live well.

In honor of your (re)birthday today, I give God thanks for you, and I praise His mighty name for your life. It is a precious gift to be your mother, and it is an honor to call you my son.
I love you Christian…you forever hold my heart!

Momma

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An Event Invitation to Christian Writers (and Readers)


For over a year now, I have had an idea for a story line in mind. It’s in regards to spiritual warfare and using the Armor of God. The trouble is that I have had little time to actually write these thoughts and ideas down. So during all this time, there have been so many different possibilities for characters and scenarios, each going in a different direction.

As a writer, this has caused a dilemma for me in that I now have so many paths to choose from for which story to write.

Last month, as I was finally winding down with finishing up a few mandatory projects, I began thinking about the annual National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) event that begins each year in November. I have unofficially participated in the event for several years, but only reached the goal of 30,000 words once, which turned into a series of articles. But the practice and experience gained from the events was certainly worth the effect. It helped to sharpen both my thinking and writing skills.

As I considered participating this year, I was also thinking about isolated writers tend to be at times while busy working on their projects. I was also working at the time, helping a friend with a manuscript they were working on, and this sparked an idea that started keeping me awake at night and getting up 2 hours before the alarm clock went off.

What if a story outline was presented, and then readers and writers together created the details to tell the story? It would give the readers a say in what happens and what directions the characters take, while giving the writers the opportunity to hone their writing skills following the guidelines of the readers directions.

So I decided to create a website for the specific purpose of bringing readers and writers together, to participate in the creation of what I am calling a “Christian fantasy fiction” series, based on my outline. And I’m using the NaNoWriMo event as the model, with a goal of at least 50,000 words by the end of November. The website is simple and pretty easy to sign up for membership, and it’s absolutely free to join.

If you like to read or write fiction, I invite you to join me in this adventure of creating an outstanding series that will not only tell an amazing tale with lessons of enduring faith, but will also create bonds of friendship, and help and encouragement for writers of all levels.

For more information visit the website here.

I hope you join me on this journey, and please feel free to share. I look forward to getting to know you all better.

God bless,

Amber Lea

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